ALL IS WELL!...

I juz realize dat my life would nuttin without my ol-frenz...
no wonder i've been having dis burden on my shoulders...
its becoz i left them hanging a year ago.. they never heard frm me again... until now!..
it all started on da 10th of february 2008...
it was da day dat i called ezham n he picked me up n help me get to unikop..
it was THE MOST pressure breakdown i have ever had!!
i have to say..., arm is da first one to c my meltdown.. n BOY! i think he wuz shocked.. kutt2 larr... huhu...
he couldnt say anythng aside frm 'r u ok' 'ilek r moon'.. thinkng bout it back makes me laugh... huhu...

i couldnt even speak properly... dats how messed up i wuz.. i spoke to arm as if i wuz a bad radio reception... u can imagine huh!....
n as i reach my ostel at unikop, my houzmate noticed sumthng wuz wrong wit me... Aween even asked me, 'moon, ko nmpk len rr lately..'
of course i wasnt in my rite mind.. n my attitude/behaviour CHANGED COMPLETELY.
i skipped classes, i slept all day, n if i wuz awake; i didnt knw wht 2 do in da houz...
my mind wuz set to NOT step a foot in dat putrajaya houz ever again..
m willing to b stranded thango back to dat houz... n eventually i didnt get to step my foot in dat houz.. coz they moved to SHAH ALAM... i didnt even bother to come n pack my own stuff in 'my' room... i even told my kazenz to throw all my stuff 4 i wont b needng any of it..
BUT they being so angelic n compromising, they packed all my stuff neway..

evr since february 10th, i DID NOT even look 4 one of my frenz in putrajaya... at that time i feel dat if i called them, i would b burdening them with my needy butt!!
n i dun like looking vulnerable in front of my frenz ya know...
besides, they're all bz wit their study n all... n here i am... hanging around from house 2 house (menumpang beb!) jumping jobs n find new people...
eventhough those new people i met r kind to me(aren, gina, boy, lala, k.wani, abg nusi, intan, usop,asyh, dewi, apek, mox, isz, wanna, e,fred, adam, k.sue).. there peeps dat pull bullshit all over me.. dat person(whom i shall remain nameless "K" its a half-breed genitals) is da most bitch of all bitches and i hav to say... "it" is very sneaky n 'thief-y'..
it will go around talking bout us all behind our backs n UGH! i hate dat tranvestite!it even tell its other friends dat i am its cousin!! like i said.. BULLSHIT!

da good people dat tok me in as their little sister..(awwwww...) brought me back to life.. a bit.. coz they have their own probs to handle. n im juz grateful dat they were da ones dat put da food inside my mouth while i was looking 4 a job... they r my family then.. they r my family FOREVER.. no matter what happens.. all the fighting n bad-mouthing.. dat will never compare to the way them guys took care of me..
without them.. id probably would have gone insane or psychopathic frm all the imagination of murder n blood..
they brought me down to da ground n they hook me there...
I LOVE U GUYS...

as fro my ptrajaya frenz... they r still in my mind... butthey know me as da person who would suck-it-up and go on with life... i must admit.., i was embarrassed to show myself to them...
becoz da moon then.., was screwed n disrupted..(DEAD more likely.)
da moon now... is more twisted i guess.., more predictable? or more complex??... i dunno dear geng... u judge my difference.. is it better?? or is it worse than ever..??? i think im gonna b back home to putrajaya.. slowly..., m not ready YET to face all of u guys... too scared i guess...

let me know what ya think kay.... chiao